Today is the birthday of my mom’s best friend Billie, we can not wish her a happy birthday in person but, only send birthday wishes to heaven, Billie is missed so much.
Today is also Father’s Day, I get so confused with all the father’s day stuff, Did i love my dad, of course i did, but with the things that happen it makes me think i am really beyond crazy to still love him after everything that happened,
This week also brought a job interview that i was so excited about, a position that i thought i had every chance of getting, I received instructions on how to dress and present myself, well i did just what i was told, i was even in a dress, the lady that took my resume and gave the first interview was dressed in pants “Capri” they came just below her knees a skin tight sleeveless top that barley covered her stomach, her clothes are not what made me so crazy it was the fact that not only was she chewing gum, she was smacking it, what happened to professional this was not it, and she was one of the bosses, in the other room was a lady that was dressed in a dress but, it was skin tight and should not have been worn outside of her own home, she was eating a bag of potato chips, how is this professional in any way whatsoever; it was making me very upset, but because i need the job very much i just watched and waited there were 4 girls before me, each one when they came out the man handed there paperwork to the gum smacking lady and said this one is a yes, the first one short tight dress big boobs and fake blond hair, and by short i mean if she raised her hands in anyway no one would question what sex she was because it was right there, she was not even wearing stockings, the second lady was wearing a pair of jeans and a sleeveless tank top she did have on 6 or 8 inch high heels she was also very blond only her hair appeared to be natural blond her top was very low cut and her bra was what little of it there was, completely showing, i was not looking for these things, they were just so there, you couldn’t help but notice, the 3rd lady very large i think fake boobs and big big big hair and i think it might have been a shirt as a dress no stocking and i am not sure she was wearing anything else under that shirt, she did not even have a very long interview she was told she had the job, the fourth lady was wearing a pair of brown with holes and rips in them pants, but had on a free flowing top that was very low cut and she was not wearing a bra to support her rather large boobs, she got the job as well, when i went in dressed in a black and red covering my knees and butt dress with both a bra and underwear and stockings on, of course i had on dress shoes but, my dress shoes are flat i can not wear high heels, I was told after the interview to sit in the hallway for just a moment , a sure sign right then that it was over, well after about 5 or 10 minutes a man walked out and told me that classes were filling up, it was a lie i had heard them say when i was in the other room that the classes were even half full yet, he said well will have to let you know what our decision is, in other words, we can’t see your boobs, your A** is covered, what good are you to us, it is all crazy, of course i have not worked in the past 4 years, i have stopped coloring my hair so it does have some gray in it, i do come in a rather large body but, i am sorry being fat, older and having gray hair doesn’t mean that i can’t do something, makes me so pissed off that people can do that and get away with it and no one stops them because just like me no one complains and even when they do nothing gets done about it.
One of my favorite hobbies is now in danger as well, i just hate that people act like they are “GOD’ when it comes to certain things, i am still going to do what i want to do if there is a problem i will just delete the entry and go on from there, nothing else i can do about it
I am very worried about what little future i have, i mean honestly if i can get work soon, what good am i really, I keep getting sick and things hurt that should not hurt, my teeth i am afraid will be leaving me soon, there is no doctor or dentist that will even talk to me right now, no money no service how totally sad what if it was you that needed help oh well gotta let it go
The sad thing about the interviews is that something that is always applied is my size, like that has anything to do with what work i can do, well ok i can’t be a swimsuit model but, those girls are to skinny they need to eat a cheeseburger or somthing
Well, I guess i have ranted on long enough, Many thanks for coming to visit with me today i leave you with Love and Hugs and many blessings for your day