My size, even though i have lost over 100 pounds now, i still have a lot to go, but they dont’ know they prejudge, way to many people think that fat people are lazy, this fat girl is not lazy

My age, Sorry nothing i can do about that one, we all get older but, you know i still have many working years left

My gray hair, being out of work can’t afford the dye to cover it up, but what do want i started going gray in my 20′s and now at nearly 50 it has a lot of gray, i was going to say not more than 50 percent but, you know i just went and looked in the mirror maybe it is 50 percent gray, man when did it get that gray oh well it happens to everyone

When we moved to this State everything was suppose to be better, and some of it has been, but some of it hasn’t been, my working history sucks i took time off to care for my father when he was sick, and then when my grandma got sick i was already unemployed so i just did not look for work until after she passed

My last job lets not even go there, how is that one there are so many things that i wanted to have done by this point in my life, they did not happen guess i will have to find a way to have new dreams because everyone of them i had when i 18 and a new high school grad, have not only not come true but they were crumbled and mushed into the ground

The only one that hurts the worse is not having the babies, all the others are fine that one is the one that hurts the most

guess i had better if i can save the day by doing something, oh i have not given up on the craft idea, i have found the sewing machince that i want to buy, even though most of grandma’s sewing machince are here with us, i want to start fresh with one that has a booklet that tells about it and how to hook everything up and get started i may fail horriable but, i still want to try it and i will get to that and if i don’t guess it wasn’t meant to be

I have had a broken computer for awhile, but i have to say it is wonderful to have her back at home with me now, she is working great and thanks to my brother who fixed her up, if you have some shoping to do why not go and check out my brothers shopping site and his King James Bible or Weekly Sermon links, they are listed with my links,

Thanks everyone for coming by, May your day be blessed

~Laura

I hate being unemployed, I want so much to be back at work, i will be honest it is for the money right now, because most of the time when i have a job the majority of the folks that i work with just find me to horrible to be around so i usually do not have a lot of friends, the job i had i found a freindship starting but, after i hurt myself no one would talk to me, i don’t know what they thought i was going to do, i mean the injury happened off work time so i wasn’t going to do anything to the job, then it became so clear that when i return to work after 8 days of recovery time that they felt i was no longer a person they wanted to work with but i still stuck it out, crying all the time but i showed up and did what i was suppose to do until that day when it all ended oh well, there loss

I want to do so much more than i have been doing, i want to learn to sew there are so many sewing machince here at the house, i had a couple of old ones already but, when grandma passed we now have all of hers here at the house, does it sound crazy that i want to buy a brand new one, let me tell you why, a new one would have all the pieces in the box with it the instruction book, (yes i do read the instructions) and whatever attachments come with it would already be with it, with all the pieces we have of grandma’s i seriouly don’t know what goes with what but, i think i would love doing my own thing with crafts and gifts, sewing my own clothes don’t think i would ever get to knowing sewing that well, but who knows, i mostly like said want to do crafts and maybe a bedspread or curtians, i guess we will see what happens with that one,  I want to be able to just get on the computer and get things done fast, most of the time i get so distracted by things expecially on a social site that i am on right now they are changing stuff once again, damm why do they do that, they give people no choice they just change it, think my time there is coming to an end or at least not spending so much time there, i have other stuff i want to do,

the treadmill is dusty once again, have not been doing my walks as often as i should, tell you the truth i have not been to much of any exercising lately, but i am trying to get my little corner of the house very clean, i recently put tile in the hallway between the two bedroom that i call bedroom and office, there was tile there but, it wasn’t finished, now the tile is all down have to to the borders still but, for the most part is is done, still have to finish the bathroom, the bedroom was finished when completed the hallway, it really looks so nice, i can not beleive it was me that did that,

I renamed my site My Journey of Life becuase Finding Laura just sounded stupid to me, you can’t miss me i am larger than life itself, so mabye i can find more about myself, I do struggle everyday to find out who i am really, so many mean people have told me several things about myself that i just don’t want to beleive, maybe a small bit of it is true but, not all of it, no way

well i guess i should stop this is going to take up three or four pages of space, with just this one post, well at least i feel a little bit better right now, think i will go and post another random photo on that page can’t beleive it is already going to be April 2012, where did the first 3 months go

Hugs, Love and Blessing to all

~Laura

well time to get off the post page now talk to all later on
have a safe and wonderfuly blessed day

-Laura

He had a trouble life, but was getting it all together..

Rest easy Billy Ray, you will be missed

Think i will work on getting the rest of the poems added today, maybe get more of the memorials for the furry children, or who knows maybe i will start that photo page, yeah well i may not do any of it, I am not really sure who is reading anything at this page, I get upset everytime i look at my heavens angels page because my 10 year wings are still not there, you know i can’t remember if they were even sent to me, but if they were they are stuck on the big computer (that is dead, right now) and the 11 years wings are due soon, but i am not going to say anything, HA has been though a lot of changes over the past year or so, I am so glad that it is still here…

well i have gone on more than normal today so i will close this post for now and get busy with something, oh i almost forgot my big computer is going to be going to visit the computer wizard (My Brother) for repair, i can’t tell you how happy i am about that, when it comes back Mom’s computer is going, I think this laptop needs to go as well and get some more memory added to it, it is really slow at times, but i will tell you it has kept me from going insane while the big computer has been out, I am working on getting a flat monitor, i still the older big tv looking thing, but i don’t know if i have said this or not I am very greatful for everything that i have.

Thank you for stoping by today and may you have a blessed day

Laura

You know I keep thinking how can i get the site to were people will come to visit well i belong to a group that should be coming every once in awhile to see, but i have so many pages that are not completed that i really don’t blame anyone for not coming, well starting today i am going to try and come at least once a week to get some things down, today i am going to add furry animals pages

Trying to get myself out of a funk that i have been in so hopefully doing these pages will help me and i am hoping to get some of the poems back on this site as well maybe going to add a random photo pages, i tried to do that once before and things got out of control with myself i would forget to add them oh well not everyone is perfect, and surly not me

ok well going to get busy with doing the furry babies pages, Thank you to all who come to visit

Hugs and love and blessing to all

Laura

I am very scared that just like always the abuser will get off scott free, although i did hear another story that an abuser got life in prision becuase after 3 rapes he was a danger and needed to be locked away, well i would have thought after the first attack he was a danger but that is just me and not the police or judges

Sometimes i wonder why does this happen, and even though i do beleive in GOD and he divine ways, sometimes i wonder why does he let this happen to little kids

well thanks for reading the post today, blessing be send you way

Laura

Mom was at ER yesterday after several days of pain, she is going to be ok, just has to get herself eating better and taking better care of herself of course we can all take better care of ourselves

have been adding thing to the site today, some poetry, and have added a lot of photo’s to photobucket account if you go to look enjoy there is going to be a lot more added in the coming days, i might even need to get another photobucket or use the flicker account that i have but have not used who knows well starting to get silly again so i will sign off for now and get back to adding poems to the site have a look around site is growing daily

Thanks for reading and God Bless

Laura

I had a job but, now i am not sure i still have one, big meeting on the 2nd of january to find out if it still there, i sure hope so, that would take a lot of worry and things off my mind, i am still recovering from a fracture in my back, i never knew it could hurt so bad, i am not taking any more strong meds, i am only taking an over the counter med now, i did not want to become addited to the pain meds, although i am thinking i may have stopped to soon, i can’t hear out of one of my ears, not 100 percent sure what is causing that

I am worried about bills and worried about mom she get sad when she starts worrying and it makes me sad as well, we have worked for a long time to get past several issues in life and i am happy to say we are doing great, i think of my mom as my best freind

signing off for now blessings to all

Laura