Can Someone Help Me
**Please be warned this is a poem about Sexual Abuse and Rape
I want to know love, I want to let someone close,
I want to know what it feels like to have someone next to you in bed at night
Someone who loves you, and is not trying to hurt you
All of these love feelings make me confused
I thought I knew love once, it turned out I misunderstood
He really loved another, I was just there as a decoy
Is love suppose to be a visit from your father at night, doing unspeakable acts
While Mom is alseep in the next room unknowing
Is love the teacher who took you against you will
Is love hearing the worlds this hurts me a lot more that it does you
as you are being spanked, then being told oh he went out on the porch and cried
afterwards, does that mean I am really loved because he cried after I was hurt
Is love keeping a secret, so that no one will be embarrassed
But, fills you with such shame that follows you forever
Is love hearing you have such a pretty face….If only…..
Is love being the one who is here for him, The one who gets to hear
how special the others are, While I am just the Whore
Or worse Mentally ill ?
Where do I sign up, Can you tell me
Is it too late…..
**This poem was written by me, the day I started therapy
Copyright © Laura L Charles